Amie, just admit it's because you wanted to be important. You wanted to answer "Why am I even here?" You were watching yourself become a side character in your own show. You took the broken moment hoping it would give your 'character' a purpose, but all it did was make you a target.
>Amie: "Because I knew you would yell at me…"
"I just - I thought it was my chance."
"I've always been thinking what I'd do if it happened, if adventure came calling, and I just - I thought this was it."